Kodou  are days that I wanted to update. 
 days. 
 I wanted to talk about my birthday. 
 But I can not. 
 Today is all black. 
 raining outside. 
 There is no prospect for a smile.   
 Ink on paper today. What I love black and white to dig the soul. 
  A letter full of hopes faded .. covered by the tears of laughter. 
 
  Have you ever touched the love?  
 And failing that, then. You and her.  
 not take it anymore. 
 I feel destroyed by the absence of people of whom more than I need right now. 
 inability to close them, even if only in thought.  
 And when I come back home .. you will not be there. Even if you'd come looking, at least I had the feeling of having you closer. 
 After all, Taranto is not so great. 
 But no. 
 Cause now I only fear. 
 I miss a piece. You're part of me. I can not. 
 I need your smile. 
 am a complete idiot. 
 Sorry. I do not know what to do .. I'm so sorry. I hate myself for having turned away from me. 
 I'm jealous of everything around you moves. 
 It's too bad. 
 .. start again .. please.